Not dwelling on it…

Years ago I was what is considered clinically depressed…. I had a peak experience which was to undo this. I was reading the Eagle’s Gift at the time; living in a two room apartment in the city where i was. I had been out and about wondering the parks and street… i often did! I […]

The Soul’s Purpose

The greatest get out clause in the game; “I never asked to be born”.“I never asked for any of this”. But, in shamanic terms the understanding is precisely that; you agreed to enter the world. The suffering you experience now is the price you pay for being born. That’s exactly the deal! That’s Karma….. Would […]

Toltec

A promo album was released by Geffen called The Power of Silence in 1992. A full release never appeared, but Toltec is essentially the same music, with added narration. The 1996 Toltec release is made up of 13 cuts divided into three parts. It tells the tale of the Toltec, a Native American concept of […]

The Path with heart (choose life)

I have realised after many years of following the Toltec way to knowledge, that the path with heart as Don Juan described must be different for every person. Yet, Don Juan says there are an infinite number of wrong paths, and only one true path that leads you anywhere What the heart desires in each […]

I’ll tell you what is wrong with the world!

I’ll tell you what is wrong with the world! It’s religion fundamentally that has gone astray; you can put the world’s catastrophe down to many things, but in the final analysis, the fault lies with religion, not politics or any other organisational structure. The reason I say this is because I have ‘seen’, and seeing […]

The Warrior’s mask

The mask is a vital aspect of Toltec mythos; it is also an integral part of shamanism, as a whole. Don Juan said a warrior can wear any mask they like, however, there comes a time when the mask, must be removed. This is because of the need to be authentic, which is the quest […]

A Golden age

Once there was a uniting global system of unity, I am sure. Before a great cataclysmic event that put an end to peace and stability on this planet and plunged the world into darkness… war and destructionI am convinced there was a Golden age of peace and prosperity, where there was once a worship of […]

The Tenant

“I have met with the tenant and got distinctly the impression that they were Mexican in origin, at least they were wearing Mexican peasant clothes.”

“Reciprocity“

The function of a nagual is that if you approach them wrongly, with poor intent they will cause you more detriment than you thought possible…it’s the same with witchcraft….in which there is a saying of true witches…either “KILL OR CURE….” Heal or harm… the choice is yours; there is no middle ground, in this instance….. […]

The Elders

When i was a child, i had a vision that was to never leave me. I lived in rather an ordinary town, which sat on a hill. Beyond the elevation on which the town was situated, the rest of the landscape was completely flat – ‘as far as the eye can see’, so the horizon […]

Last Dance

The Warrior’s last stand is an important aspect of Toltec teaching as it not only concerns “living like a warrior” but also the practical application; an alternate means of dying….. Don Juan and his party is said to have “burnt with the fire from within and left the earth”. The Eagle is the force in […]

A Threshold of Pain

They say it is always darkest before the dawn, and this is without a doubt, applicable to life, death and the search for truth. In our deepest darkest moments there is a tension that exists. It manifests in the form of energy, which creates a dis-ease. While, were we to go beyond this point – […]

The Toltec Tollbooth

“My will controls the folly of my life –
And there is nothing I can do to change the folly of my life” ~ Toltec Warrior

Being inaccessible

“Therein lies the secret of great hunters. To be available and unavailable at the precise turn of the road. You must learn to become deliberately available and unavailable. As your life goes now, you are unwittingly available at all times. To be unavailable does not mean to hide or to be secretive but to be […]

The Eagle’s gift

It is time now to tell you the “rule” as it pertains to the Nagual and his role, exactly as it was told to me. Being involved with the rule may be described as living a myth. In my case, a myth that caught me and made me the Nagual. The power that governs the […]

The world of inner silence…

“I never noticed the noise in my head, until it stopped”.

Find Balance…

They say think positively, always try and see the positive side of every situation! But its hard when disaster hits and all you can see, feel or hope to know is the pain of the misfortune that the circumstances have caused you… But it’s true there is a positive side to every negative situation, a […]

The Spirit Catcher

“Now let us call that spirit of the water hole,” he said. I tried to turn my head to look at him. He held me vigorously by the hair and said that I was in a very vulnerable position and in a terribly weak physical state and had to remain quiet and motionless. He had […]

The Crack between the Worlds

“Every one of us has an energetic fissure, an energetic crack below the navel. That crack, which sorcerers call the gap, is closed when a man is in his prime. Normally, all that is discernible to the sorcerer’s eye is a tenuous discoloration in the otherwise whitish glow of the luminous sphere. But when a […]

Nostalgia

“Nostalgia is just a distraction for the shaman. Although it is a pleasant experience, it is something which draws him away from intent. It diverts his attention away from the task at hand. Recapitulation is how the warrior recalls the past. And recapitulation cannot be done with a mood of attachment, nor infatuation, and certainly not through […]

Singularity – the unfolding

“The universe is a divergence, a division of oneness arising from a singularity of everything uniquely whole. From this Singularity comes the separation of form which we are currently experiencing. Everything will return to wholeness ultimately, it is my firm belief. The existence of light and dark is only an illusion of this separation of matter. Everything we […]

The Return of Quetzalcoatl

I have just been away camping, I hiked about 50 miles from Aviemore to Breamar, in the Scottish Highlands. While I was away, I camped one night by a Loch and took magic mushrooms (humito). I didn’t ingest a great deal as I didn’t take much with me. However it was prepared right; kept in a […]

The definitive Journey:

We are part of the cosmic consciousness. We are given a portion of this awareness with which to develop and enrich the energy we are bestowed. Through our experience and through the knowledge we gain in particular, this awareness becomes built upon. Our evolution is the collective process of the development of this awareness from […]

Yopo Vision (Trip report)

Yopo snuff or Anadenanthera peregrina is a psycho-active substance prepared and used by The Yanomamo (Yah-no-mah-muh) tribe of the Amazon regions of Brazil and Venezuela. Also called the Yanomami, and Yanomama, they are deep jungle Indians believed to be the most primitive, culturally intact people in existence in the world. They are literally a stone […]

Nagual’s Dream

A Nagual’s dream ~ The Warrior’s Journey – The quest for knowledge leading into the heart of the unknown. A visual and auditory landscape – a dedication to all those who faithfully follow the path with heart without rushing or faltering.

The Path With Heart

“Anything is one of a million paths. Therefore you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path; if you feel you should not follow it, you must not stay with it under any conditions. To have such clarity you must lead a disciplined life. Only then will you know that any […]

The Place of No Pity

“The nature of ruthlessness is that it is the opposite of self-pity. All sorcerers are ruthless.” “As I have said, the fourth abstract core of the sorcery stories is called the descent of the spirit, or being moved by intent . In order to let the mysteries of sorcery reveal themselves it is necessary for […]

The way back to serenity

Derangement in my opinion is the worst thing that can be set a warrior. A man of knowledge is only such for a fleeting moment then he must return again to the world of ordinary affairs ~ knowledge is a crashing wave and as it breaks upon the shores of knowing – Only then does […]

Breaking the ties with Perception

In the first place to see beyond the illusion, is to not trust perception. To understand that the world is a description; a form of language created by the thought of self-reflection. And knowing that by ending this internal dialogue, in order to enter into inner silence and create a shift in awareness, that gives […]

Stalking and Dreaming

The most demanding aspect of the teachings of Don Juan Matus, is in regard to the duality of the warrior; how is it possible to reconcile the two halves of our double nature that comprise the whole. Our dual nature is at best both an advantage and something of a burden… it can inhibit our […]

The Eagle and the Wheel of Time

The ancient Toltec seers of Mexico concerned themselves with irreducible fact derived by seeing the energetic flow that permeates the universe. This configuration of energy they referred to as the Eagle – the defining source of creation. Time they categorized as something like a thought, thought by something unimaginably large, while space they viewed as […]

The Flyers

Excerpted from “The Active Side of Infinity” by Carlos Castenada pg 217 Don Juan said, “This is the appropriate time of day for doing what I am asking you to do. It takes a moment to engage the necessary attention to do it. Don’t stop until you catch that fleeting black shadow.” I did see […]

Six Explanatory Propositions: from The Eagle’s Gift, by Carlos Castaneda

This is a translation of ”The Six Explanatory Propositions” which were included in the Spanish language version of the Eagle’s Gift but were never published in the English versions of the book. Six Explanatory Propositions: from The Eagle’s Gift, by Carlos Castaneda In spite of the amazing maneuvers that DJ did with my awareness, along […]

Mescalito and the Allies

The ally is the spirit – the force that comes out at times of great stress in the life of the individual. The spirit can be beckoned and brought to the aid of a warrior in order for him to learn and to gain knowledge. The ally can be thought of as a spirit helper. […]

The Sabre-Toothed Tiger of Intent

The Sabre-toothed tiger, for the seers of ancient Mexico, embodies the passion of the warrior-traveller-the navigator in the sea of awareness. The sabre-tooth roamed from the valley of Mexico all the way along the western coast and into southern and central California, the areas from which the magical passes originate. We may think of the […]

Recapitulation

“The old sorcerers saw that at the moment of death, the dark sea of awareness sucked in, so to speak, through the assemblage point, the awareness of living creatures. They also saw that the dark sea of awareness had a moment’s, let’s say, hesitation when it was faced with sorcerers who had done a […]

Quitting the Internal Dialogue

We remember in distinctly different ways. One is with the inventory of the mind our memory. And the other energetically with the whole being.The internal dialogue is said to be the description of the world. The subjective re-enactment of the objective world internalized in our heads (so to speak). One talks to oneself about everything […]

The Nagual

“A nagual is empty. That emptiness doesn’t reflect the world, it reflects infinity. A nagual has no boisterousness on his part, or assertions about the self. There is not a speck of a need to have either grievances or remorse. His is the emptiness of a warrior-traveler, seasoned to the point where he doesn’t take […]

The Warrior’s Last Stand

WATCH VIDEO Excerpt from Journey to Ixtlan: Lessons of Don Juan by Carlos Castaneda “What do you mean by my last dance don Juan?” “This is the site of your last stand, ” he said. “You will; die here no matter where you are. Every warrior has a place to die. A place of his […]

Find the Hands in Dreaming

I first found my hands in dreaming about 12 years ago. It was not for a want of trying that it took me so long to achieve. I would practice setting up dreaming before falling asleep most nights, I would remind myself that the purpose of my dreaming was to find my hands, I would […]

The Gaps between the sounds of the World

I had a pivotal experience many years ago of seeing the gaps between the sounds of the world. I was driving to my home town which I was moving back to. I had been reading Castaneda for sometime, and during the drive I was contemplating, whether I was to going to continue following this path […]

The Warrior’s Controlled Folly

The Sorcerer’s Diagram

“We are perceives,” he proceeded. “The world that we perceive though, is an illusion. It was created by a description that was told to us since the moment we were born. “We, the luminous beings, are born with two rings of power, but we use only one to create the world. That ring, which is hooked […]

U.F.O Sighting (dreaming awake)

10 years ago I went walking around the country for three months. I boarded a train with the intention of travelling to Hope in Derbyshire. However due to difficulties I was having on the train I had to get off at Edale, one stop short of “Hope” if you will…I got off the train and […]

My Dream of Quetzalcoatl

Recently I was in a dream state. My dream had quite ordinary beginnings but escalated to something quite elaborate…It started in the normal way, but I believe I must have found my hands as the dreaming became more vivid and I was able after a while to move from one dreaming location to another quite […]

The ‘not-doing’ of shadows

Shall I tell you about the time that I died….. My story begins 20 years ago when due to difficulties I was experiencing (to put it mildly), I was sectioned and taken into mental hospital. I had been living in Manchester in the early 90’s but moved back to my hometown where I was hospitalized. […]