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The End of the world!

Don Juan describes how a warrior is not born; they are essentially made. He repeatedly emphasises that a warrior is a product of unyielding effort and a “revolution” against one’s own habits. The exact quote is: “Nobody is born a warrior in exactly the same way that no one is born an average man. We […]

The Soul’s Purpose

The greatest get out clause in the game; “I never asked to be born”.“I never asked for any of this”. But, in shamanic terms the understanding is precisely that; you agreed to enter the world. The suffering you experience now is the price you pay for being born. That’s exactly the deal! That’s Karma….. Would […]

Man is the dream of the dolphin

Dancing in the waves……..The Shaman says; man is the dream of the Dolphin…… “Anything is one of a million paths. Therefore you must always keep in mind that a path is only a path; if you feel you should not follow it, you must not stay with it under any conditions. To have such clarity […]

The Warrior’s mask

The mask is a vital aspect of Toltec mythos; it is also an integral part of shamanism, as a whole. Don Juan said a warrior can wear any mask they like, however, there comes a time when the mask, must be removed. This is because of the need to be authentic, which is the quest […]

A Golden age

Once there was a uniting global system of unity, I am sure. Before a great cataclysmic event that put an end to peace and stability on this planet and plunged the world into darkness… war and destructionI am convinced there was a Golden age of peace and prosperity, where there was once a worship of […]

The Tenant

“I have met with the tenant and got distinctly the impression that they were Mexican in origin, at least they were wearing Mexican peasant clothes.”

The Elders

When i was a child, i had a vision that was to never leave me. I lived in rather an ordinary town, which sat on a hill. Beyond the elevation on which the town was situated, the rest of the landscape was completely flat – ‘as far as the eye can see’, so the horizon […]

Last Dance

The Warrior’s last stand is an important aspect of Toltec teaching as it not only concerns “living like a warrior” but also the practical application; an alternate means of dying….. Don Juan and his party is said to have “burnt with the fire from within and left the earth”. The Eagle is the force in […]

The Toltec Tollbooth

“My will controls the folly of my life –
And there is nothing I can do to change the folly of my life” ~ Toltec Warrior

The crate

I had not dreamed lucidly for sometime; in fact my dreaming had been scant for a while. I was in an unusual place to sleep – but a place where i had slept before but not many times. I fell quickly asleep, but had a distinct awareness of myself falling into that sleep. The scene […]

The Sorcerers’ aspiration

Sorcerers’ aspirations are to reach infinity, and to be conscious of it. The task of sorcerers is to face infinity. They plunge into it daily, as a fisherman plunges into the sea. It is such an overwhelming task that sorcerers have to state their names before venturing into it. In this manner, they assert their […]

The world of inner silence…

“I never noticed the noise in my head, until it stopped”.

The Spirit Catcher

“Now let us call that spirit of the water hole,” he said. I tried to turn my head to look at him. He held me vigorously by the hair and said that I was in a very vulnerable position and in a terribly weak physical state and had to remain quiet and motionless. He had […]

The Crack between the Worlds

“Every one of us has an energetic fissure, an energetic crack below the navel. That crack, which sorcerers call the gap, is closed when a man is in his prime. Normally, all that is discernible to the sorcerer’s eye is a tenuous discoloration in the otherwise whitish glow of the luminous sphere. But when a […]

Salvia Divinorum (Trip report)

A number of years ago, I had a trip on Salvia Divinorum, that I was not likely to forget. I had been researching Salvia for some while. It is an entheogen, originally used by the Mazatec Indians of Oaxaca, Mexico, in healing and divination. Salvia is a member of the ‘sage’ family and is often loosely translated […]

Finding the Spirit Catcher (Dreaming Awake)

Some years ago I made the decision, I was going to get back into hiking and camping in a big way. I decided I wanted to go to Scotland, but felt slightly trepidations about heading straight for the highlands. I needed somewhere remote but wanted to test the water first. I found myself in a […]

Nagual’s Dream

A Nagual’s dream ~ The Warrior’s Journey – The quest for knowledge leading into the heart of the unknown. A visual and auditory landscape – a dedication to all those who faithfully follow the path with heart without rushing or faltering.

Breaking the ties with Perception

In the first place to see beyond the illusion, is to not trust perception. To understand that the world is a description; a form of language created by the thought of self-reflection. And knowing that by ending this internal dialogue, in order to enter into inner silence and create a shift in awareness, that gives […]

Stalking and Dreaming

The most demanding aspect of the teachings of Don Juan Matus, is in regard to the duality of the warrior; how is it possible to reconcile the two halves of our double nature that comprise the whole. Our dual nature is at best both an advantage and something of a burden… it can inhibit our […]

Six Explanatory Propositions: from The Eagle’s Gift, by Carlos Castaneda

This is a translation of ”The Six Explanatory Propositions” which were included in the Spanish language version of the Eagle’s Gift but were never published in the English versions of the book. Six Explanatory Propositions: from The Eagle’s Gift, by Carlos Castaneda In spite of the amazing maneuvers that DJ did with my awareness, along […]

Mescalito and the Allies

The ally is the spirit – the force that comes out at times of great stress in the life of the individual. The spirit can be beckoned and brought to the aid of a warrior in order for him to learn and to gain knowledge. The ally can be thought of as a spirit helper. […]

The Sabre-Toothed Tiger of Intent

The Sabre-toothed tiger, for the seers of ancient Mexico, embodies the passion of the warrior-traveller-the navigator in the sea of awareness. The sabre-tooth roamed from the valley of Mexico all the way along the western coast and into southern and central California, the areas from which the magical passes originate. We may think of the […]

The Warrior’s Last Stand

WATCH VIDEO Excerpt from Journey to Ixtlan: Lessons of Don Juan by Carlos Castaneda “What do you mean by my last dance don Juan?” “This is the site of your last stand, ” he said. “You will; die here no matter where you are. Every warrior has a place to die. A place of his […]

Find the Hands in Dreaming

I first found my hands in dreaming about 12 years ago. It was not for a want of trying that it took me so long to achieve. I would practice setting up dreaming before falling asleep most nights, I would remind myself that the purpose of my dreaming was to find my hands, I would […]

The Sorcerer’s Diagram

“We are perceives,” he proceeded. “The world that we perceive though, is an illusion. It was created by a description that was told to us since the moment we were born. “We, the luminous beings, are born with two rings of power, but we use only one to create the world. That ring, which is hooked […]

My Vision of Ganesh

Last year in 2010, I went to Kathmandu, and stayed with a friend I know living out there; a born Nepalese man who befriended me in 2007 when I first visited Nepal. My stay was for a month the purpose of which to trek and take photographs of Kathmandu. Prior to this, I had been […]

U.F.O Sighting (dreaming awake)

10 years ago I went walking around the country for three months. I boarded a train with the intention of travelling to Hope in Derbyshire. However due to difficulties I was having on the train I had to get off at Edale, one stop short of “Hope” if you will…I got off the train and […]

A Saturn’s Return (dreaming awake)

I am reluctant to talk about my visions on the whole, I would rather talk of knowledge on a practical level of what I know. Visions are in general unexplained phenomena which take years to be explained. But in the interests of emptying myself which is the shaman’s practice I will tell you about my […]

My Dream of Quetzalcoatl

Recently I was in a dream state. My dream had quite ordinary beginnings but escalated to something quite elaborate…It started in the normal way, but I believe I must have found my hands as the dreaming became more vivid and I was able after a while to move from one dreaming location to another quite […]

The ‘not-doing’ of shadows

Shall I tell you about the time that I died….. My story begins 20 years ago when due to difficulties I was experiencing (to put it mildly), I was sectioned and taken into mental hospital. I had been living in Manchester in the early 90’s but moved back to my hometown where I was hospitalized. […]